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Apr. 8th, 2012

meeee

Ruined

So I met this guy the other day and we totally hit it off. He stayed at school for 6 hours and taught me how to play Yu-gi-oh even though he had a ton of other important things to do. He wrote his school schedule on a piece of paper and then wrote, "Other than that I'm flexible." I seriously thought he was trying yo ask me out or at least let me know that he wanted to hang out. I gave him my number but he didn't text me that night. Which was strange...

Two days later I proceeded to get his number from a friend and text him. I was a little nervous about texting him cause I didn't want to come off as a creep or stalker but I really wanted to talk to him. So I texted him and he said, "Oh hi there, when did I give you my number?" That just made me sad. Its like he didn't want me to text him. I told him the truth; that I got his number from Celena and asked him if he was busy. We had an normal conversation after that but I still felt weird about it. But I can't seem to get him out of my head.

What should I do now? Forget about him or keep my hopes up?

Feb. 8th, 2012

meeee

It was bound to happen

So the guy I'm practically in love with got a girlfriend today. I knew that if I didn't make a move it would happen. But I was too scared to say anything. Now I have to endure the pain and regret.
I know that God has a plan for me and a great guy will come around. I just wish that he could let a guy like me back for once.

Dec. 29th, 2011

meeee

Writer's Block: Winter vacation

Convince myself that the guy of my dreams isn't really the "guy of my dreams."
meeee

Writer's Block: Roll the dice

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meeee

Ending

I'm starting to realize that I don't want you. You smoke and drink and your habits would do nothing but hinder my life. I can't date someone who parties all night, every night. Sure, you're beautiful in every way but looks only go so far. And I know now that your aren't interested in pursuing a relationship with me. I'm going to leave you alone now. No more buying you cards. No more facebook statuses pertaining to you. No more texting or facebook messages. And certainly no more compliments. It has to end.

Dec. 26th, 2011

meeee

Writer's Block: Winter vacation

Forget the end of the year. I just want to make a new year's resolution.
meeee

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I have faith that I can get over him now. Its been so long since I've seen him and its great being able to hang out with my friends. This week is going to be awesome and filled with great memories. Sure, he'll be in the back of my mind always. But with time I'm sure the feelings will pass. I'm scared of what will happen when I see him at Schola in a week. Oh well. Everything happens for a reason and its God's will. Pray he guides me in the right direction.

Dec. 25th, 2011

meeee

Relationship Status Stupidity

So for some reason I thought it would be a good idea to get into a relationship with my friend as a joke on facebook. I like someone else and I thought it would make them notice me more. But in all reality, I think that it made him forget me all together. I'm so worried. I put my relationship status back to single but I still don't know what is going to come of this. He was the first person the like me being in a relationship. That can't be good. But I texted him Merry Christmas last night and he said "Thank you love! You too!" So that kinda settled my doubts. I'm still unsure about this. I'm gonna try talking to him soon and hopefully he'll answer. Pray he does.
meeee

Writer's Block: Career paths

I want to sing in a choir that travels and is renowned throughout the world.
meeee

Writer's Block: Merry Christmas

Materialistic present? The orange shirt I bought.
Non-materialistic? The text my crush sent me. :)

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